sick

Riley is sick with pneumonia and primary complex. Poor little baby. On the outside, he's fine compared to last week when he had fever and laryngitis. As usual, I'm researching on it. I've read and read its symptoms, treatment and prevention. I've never been seriously sick my whole life. The one time I've been hospitalized was when I gave birth. That's it. Now I feel so incapable of handling a sick child. But he drinks his milk like usual, he plays and sleeps soundly. I've complained to my bestfriend many times how I'm so dumb with the mommy stuff. Being a first time mom herself, she just seem to fit the role so well. Knowing what to do and how to do it. I don't. I'm clueless. But then I know God gave me Riley for a purpose. And He will equip me with the "mommy enzyme".

Things I said I'd never do when I became a parent but I did

The title came from the Blogging Baby site. I got inspired so I have my own version: (Well, to start I really didn't know I'd become a parent so everything is new to me)..
1. humming nursery rhymes at work or when Rye isn't with me. He loves the Barney songs and it's in my head all the time even if I just saw Lea Salonga in concert, though she also sang mommy songs coz she's pregnant!
2. holding a traditional baby bag. I told myself I'll have a cool leather diaper bag whenever I go out but alas, who can resist the cutey blue Peter Rabbit?
3. hospital visits. It's a must since Rye has monthly pedia visits, but it still gives me the creeps. Hospitals are like another dimension, never know when I'm gonna pass out..
4. wanting to go home asap. Now this is really foreign territory. The urgency to go home to my baby once work is done or even when it's meeting with friends..you wish they'd talk faster or cry sooner so you can console and be done and go home to Rye! (my friends don't mind naman..hehe)
5. saving and organizing and cleaning. save the best and hardest for last. Messy me trying to tuck and fold, scrub and wash, living on a budget. Could it be true? I don't recognize me anymore.

taste of Reese

Watching the Golden Globe Awards is like taking at a peek at the Oscars. It's like getting invited to an intimate dinner formal and you get to see celebs! Honestly, I love it more than the Oscars. It's very straightforward with none of the frills and delays. Loved George Clooney's speech "hey, this is early..haven't had a drink yet". Haha.

Who wouldn't even envy Reese that night? She's smart, has 2 beautiful children, Best Actress winner, has million dollar paychecks, she even sings (too much..too much) and has Ryan Philippe to go home to. &@#%$^* di ba...
I got to see her Oprah guesting where she spoke of her English teacher who made her appreciate reading. She seems like the real deal. Very consistent. She's not mega-beautiful but she is very attractive. The southern belle works out its charm.

starbucks conversations

I had a pre-celebration date with Thelmsky Diwata, Jenny Diyosa and Ellaine the Saint. It's been a long, long time since we've spent an evening like that. We had dinner, movie (Palanca winner "Blue Moon" since it's the Filmfest season) and stayed at Starbucks 6750. My top Starbucks outlets are:
1. 6750
2. Bayview Hotel
3. Greenbelt 1
4. Robinson's Place
5. Adriatico Malate
6. Glorietta 4

I always have the longest, most stimulating, interesting and controversial talks in this coffee chain. I'm not a real coffee person, I only order frappucino and last night I had Peppermint Mocha Frappe. After a year of not having any.. Ahh...the best. We stayed till the branch closed, that late tlga. Pix to follow. The smell, the ambiance, the soothing music, the comfy couch --worth the price. I'm open to try other coffee shops but nothing beats Starbucks.

a blessed 2006

Happy New Year! I love the first week of January. There's the crisp, clean smell of my new 2006 planner waiting to be filled out with my scribbles. There's the first Mass of the year. And then there's my birthday. But before I get all senti, I just want to say that I'm so at peace (or maybe just tired from spending the day at Enchanted..hehe) I slept through New Year's Eve. First time to zonk out amidst the noise and revelry.

Also, I realized I'm not an angry person. You know the type who will get a heart attack from storing so much resentment and bitterness. I maybe mad for a day or two and would really do everything I can to vent my anger but then I'll forget about it and move on. And I'm so pleased that I'm no longer a slave to my possessions. I used to hold on to all my stuff - papers, cards, letters, clothes, accessories. It was all clutter. Now I just have the things I need and will think thrice before buying something for myself. But the biggest surprise of all-- I'm more organized now.Clap clap! Thanks to Riley who is fast accumulating tons of stuff too. So more space for him.

Resolutions..I want to speak out more. I have a lot of ideas in my head but couldn't really voiced it out because I don't know...Sometimes people who talk too much just overwhelm me. And when I get my turn, I just don't have the energy anymore. I wanted to take up public speaking. Or do more hosting.

I need to be assertive. People seem to have an impression that I'm "nice". Meaning meek and kind. Nothing wrong with that really but I have to be firm to be a leader. Naks.

I need to trust my instincts. Being a Mom just freaks me out especially when Rye gets sick. I need to decide fast because I'm responsible for him. Gosh me, responsible.