August 19, 2013 

three things that make it all worthwhile: child's laughter, song in your head that goes out in your mouth and that feeling that you're extremely loved.

I went to Escolta again over the weekend. Rain or more rains. We didn't care. Jenny and I wanted to go on a vintage hunt and we did. It makes it more nostalgic when it's raining. The buildings, the mood, the pre-loved stuff. And what's a visit to this area without Sincerity, one of the country's oldest restos and the best fried chicken ever made...It was Jenny's first time to try and yes, she loved it. Nothing like a trip to Old Manila to drive all my blues away. We walked further to Divisoria, the Lucky mall where Mr. C played, what else but "Tuwing Umuulan at Kapiling Ka" and "Can this be Love". This was my day. God said, let today be Lynette's day and it shall be so. A thorough Booksale search capped the night.

bye 2013

On hindsight, I think 2013 got me in a showbiz way - singing national anthem and opening prayer, being on print ad, meeting Daphne..work was amazing and loaded. True it had its crazy times with a weepy boss but all's well that ends well with my new one. It was amazing, had its share of pruning...My morning clockwork is precise. Workout, breakfast, mass. And occasional wake up with Rye haha. But weekends are reserved for just the two of us. He's turning out to be cool, funny and wise beyond his years. I can't wait to grow up with this kid.

It was also a year of heartbreak - rejection, loss of Tamay's and Jen's baby, Dad's sickness, Yolanda typhoon. My print ad ran on the day of the typhoon. How epic was that?

Rye doing well this year. God is good and faithful!

Cheers to new friends and fun times. Had so much fun with my bffs and workmates.

Thank You Lord for Your provisions. Your loving kindness. For lessons on true servanthood. Painful but it will make sense soon. I love You. Cant wait for 2014!

December is the bomb

How can it be December already? Was I in some weird time warp or something? Last week, I learned Dad has the friendliest cancer, prostate cancer early stage. How do you actually prepare for something like this? You don't. I kind of hoping it's not true with the test and all but then when it hit me, tears just flowed. I just pray that Dad is strong enough to handle the treatment and that I'd still see him soon. After 1 and a half years. Amen. In Jesus' name. I'm just grateful with such overwhelming support my way. It's like I have it instead of him you know.

Christmas is near. It's hovering around the corner. And I feel it. Not with the usual busy and commercial trappings but something internal. It's amazing how God can just reel me in His love. Untouched by the world's uncaring. Last year, everyone was here and busy and frantic. Now it's more quiet and my pace. I get to dictate my own time. I get to escape from the things that I don't want to do. And it's liberating.

Before Dad's news i was looking on how to spend my 36th. Somewhere far or something new, surfing or ice skating, something exhilarating. This time, I don't think I want to celebrate at all. Not that I'm not grateful but I just feel that it's not right. I'll just have a quiet time. I don't know.

The Lucky One

It was one of those strange days that I wanted to go to the office not because I wanted to work but because I wanted to search this really amazing OST of The Lucky One. Unlucky for me that typhoon Maring is currently lambasting the metro. Lucky for me that I got my ost and it uplifts my mood right now. A blessing to not experience flooding anywhere near where I was supposed to board or disembark. Weird. And as well as the fact that I can walk on my way home if need be which is highly unlikely.


I've been reading Nicholas Sparks for quite alot now. I started with the Notebook and A Walk to Remember. But this Lucky One is kind of tailor-fit for me. Single mom. Little boy. Small town. Nice. I love the setting. The film I saw last night was totally faithful to the book. I can actually see myself in North Carolina. Breathable living spaces. Sleepy towns, relaxed atmosphere, close to nature. Ahh. give to me.

Zac Efron was a revelation. Of course High School Musical almost typecasted him to be this cutie. But who would have thought he could be a hottie on this one? There's so much depth in his eyes. I could drown in them. Kill me while I swoon. Perfect casting. Beth, Ben and of course, Gwyneth's mom as Nana. I didn't cry. I just sighed. This soul sigh that goes deep down to the core of my being. How I wanted to be Beth. I still know God will give my Logan. It will just take time. Like all good things. Amen.

I saw Mama dancing on video today care of Ate. I miss her voice. I miss everything. I was doing G's bday video yesterday and so many memories came over me. Life is but a moment. 

Hundred Islands Revisited

It was one of those back-breaking, tremendously cold bus road trips that will be forever cherished just because of the experience. It was good and bad and sorry I forgot my jacket or deliberately didn't bring hence, suffering for 12 hours due to the unrelenting AC. But no matter. There was wifi and just forward motion lulls me to happy sleep.

I couldn't get enough of Hundred Islands. In 2009, we just had a half day tour, just a quick island hop with Rye and Jundee's family and that was it. It's always teasing me. Then this year, just on the last day of summer, I got to go again on an almost full day tour with just a little less than half hour swim. But then it was glorious and I snorkeled perfectly, without ingesting water. The ocean was emerald green and calm.

God's perfect creation was in full display. The bats showed off, the ducks flew and oh, the most awesome sea creature, a dolphin swam before us. I was shrieking instead of taking a photo. Dolphins are not supposed to be between islands, they should be in open sea. It could be injured, I hope not. I cannot believe how it is possible to live in another world out there. All quiet, all is well. No chaos at all.

I wish the bamboo sharks thrive where they got released. It was such a cool day to do good, to actually bring something back to nature.

It's June already. Six months to Christmas!

what happened

It's been 2 months since my last post. What~?! life happened. Well, I've been online for the most part of the week except Sunday and yet I couldn't find the words or time to write to you. Shame on me. Shame. Shame. I've been debating if I should share my blog or even a create a new one for all the world to see but then I realized, no. I value my privacy so much in this such selfie world that I couldn't bear the thought that somebody in the outer online space can actually read my mind. So no. Let's be private and be cool. I miss my livejournal. Goodbye multiply.

There's not much to post except that I went to Pampanga and got my android phone Sam. With the elusive one, it's still the same old thing with some fine moments but still nothing very earth shattering. Ugh. Pain.

Rye is as witty as ever. All the more so now. He uses big words now thanks to cartoon network. He's going to be 8 in 2 weeks. Eight. How is that possible...Time is wickedly fast these days. I see Rovik and she's adorable and I still think I want one of those but you know do I really need to go through it again...hehe.

I've been thankful but sometimes been grumbling so I need to ask for a change of heart. This plateau moment is a blessed thing to have and I embraced it with all my being. We're all fine, no one sick or in a rut or crazy. Everything is moving along great. Maybe I need patience like a cloth. I have like just a teeny tiny hanky of it.

It would be nice to sing again on a regular basis. I don't know. Singing in choir has been such a good breather for me once a week if I get to be on time for the mass communion on thursdays. No more overtime except tonight. My stomach is really mad now.

My food intake has been crazy the past 2 days so I atone by just having veggies and rice for lunch but come dinner, I eat like a horse. I exercise like a madman in the morning. My am ritual feels so good. everyday. Exercise, breakfast, mass, walk to work. Repeat. No one messes with my mornings. It's all mine. Oh but early today, I cooked breakfast for Rye so that was good. Garlic scent on my fingers.

Regarding the elusive one, could it be boredom, or I don't quite know how to pin it exactly.

forgetting february

Technically I'm on a fast. From this person that  I truly want. Huhu.

December is Bliss

Recent turn of events could only be planned by God. I don't deserve any of it but everyday has been drenched with grace overwhelming. I could never hug my siblings enough or my pamangkins as well. It's like racing against time.

How do you even begin to describe November to December 2012? I can't. There's just so many memories created with family and friends. My heart is full and continues to overflow. I still have to take it all in. I haven't started. Maybe after everyone has gone home and my birthday has passed. Maybe we'll make good ones again for 2013. Cheers Lord. You've been awesome. Tell me again and again how much You love me. I'm spoiled rotten. Lazy as a fat cat. Garfield peg.

Today I woke up to the sound of my sister's voice. It's comforting. I love listening to my family's voice, laugh, snort... :)

Mama @ 75

Last night I felt like Kim Chiu, tears flowing like a river watching this Kate Hudson flick "A Little Bit of Heaven" with Kathy Bates. It was inspiring how to deal with death like that. Bring back the FUN in funeral. That incredible sensation of feeling alive when your eyes look into mine. Aww sappy crap. 

Mama is 75 today. I miss her so much my heart still bleeds. 

Tonyo thanked me on his bday greeting. Lynetterski. Cute.