How can it be December already? Was I in some weird time warp or something? Last week, I learned Dad has the friendliest cancer, prostate cancer early stage. How do you actually prepare for something like this? You don't. I kind of hoping it's not true with the test and all but then when it hit me, tears just flowed. I just pray that Dad is strong enough to handle the treatment and that I'd still see him soon. After 1 and a half years. Amen. In Jesus' name. I'm just grateful with such overwhelming support my way. It's like I have it instead of him you know.
Christmas is near. It's hovering around the corner. And I feel it. Not with the usual busy and commercial trappings but something internal. It's amazing how God can just reel me in His love. Untouched by the world's uncaring. Last year, everyone was here and busy and frantic. Now it's more quiet and my pace. I get to dictate my own time. I get to escape from the things that I don't want to do. And it's liberating.
Before Dad's news i was looking on how to spend my 36th. Somewhere far or something new, surfing or ice skating, something exhilarating. This time, I don't think I want to celebrate at all. Not that I'm not grateful but I just feel that it's not right. I'll just have a quiet time. I don't know.
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