So i'm partly done with my x-mas shopping. check. The whole of Sunday we braved the mall sale and found some great finds. Please understand i'm getting semi-o.c. these days. Must be the influence of my boss. i'm about to embark on my first house move so i must get ready to pack. Oh, the travails of letting go of the environs I've grown up with. But then the people are the ones I truly missed. And they have gone ahead too.

Last night I was laughing so hard over Adam Brody's character Seth in the O.C. He was hilarious. He was soo cute. He's even better than the male lead. Most of all, he gets the best lines in the series. I'm also crazy about One Tree Hill. Oh, and the best news is that Studio 23's bringing back Gilmore Girls this November. Yey!

this is Escolta in the 1800s. isn't it amazing to be in a place where so much life and history has happened? 

under the weather

so it was an extended down time for me. which completely weirded me out because usually in 1 or 2 days i'm back in my usual jolly mode. but this one took me weeks. on the outside, nothing's wrong with me. i've been with friends, with people that matter, i'm ok with work, church service. so i ought to be fine. NO.

inside i was a mess. when i'm alone or about to sleep or wake up, i just couldn't muster enough strength to get up or continue on. i mean believe me when i tell you i must have known what sleeping beauty felt. up until now, i don't know why it was like that. probably the lull in my sked, the routine and the all-together nothing really eventful happening with me. the excitement of moving spiralled in my head for quite a while and then i began to feel indifferent about it since the process took long to materialize finally. everything is like jampacked in december.

so when the earthquake happened, at least blood was rushing thru my veins. i mean i was that desperate for something, anything exciting to happen. i was cranky, negative and a total waste of time to people around me. so there.

do you know how odd it is to go to the mall and not find anything to buy for xmas gifts? not one single item? even for myself? am i crazy? di ba shopping is the remedy for depression among women? arrgghh..

now, i think i'm getting my groove back. i wish.

and the earth shook

So i was about to drift to la la land last night when the earth trembled. And it was longer than the last time which was about a month ago. I thought i was just groggy when suddenly even the wallclock was swaying. Good thing i wasn't the panicky type. When you live in a 70 yr old building, it is scary. But then i couldn't find my slippers, so we just stayed where we were. That's how anti-social or stupid our family were har har har..but turns out it was just that one time. I remembered the "Relativity" episode where Isabel and Leo were doing it and there was an earthquake, understably so because they were in L.A. They thought they caused the earth to move. whoa!

Kudos to CNN. they reported it first. The local networks suck!

spelunking in Sagada

spelunking (n) the sport of climbing and walking in caves

Way before i learned what this word actually means, i was able to do this already. yey! we spelunked (?) in Sumaging Cave in Sagada, also known as the Big Cave. It was the ultimate adventure. On hindsight, we didn't really know what we were getting into. Thelma just let us read a few web articles about Sagada and Auntie Day's own trips. And I was the total "saling pusa" on that trip. I bought the bus ticket with only 2 seats available since Thelma and Jen got theirs a week earlier. I only had enough money to last a week and truly we couldn't believe how we even got home. Yes, i promised the mountain mystics i'll go back. with Juan Luna in tow.

a busy sunday city tour

Yen and i had our "day-off" yesterday at Camp Aguinaldo to be at the "Feast" celebration with Bo Sanchez. It was fun to see Mara from our college block who's part of the choir and other Elimites like Work and Randy. I'm not sure if they transferred communities or it's just a guest member thingy. Anyhoo, it was inspiring to listen to Bo. I've read about him for so long but it was the first time i ever saw and listened to him live.

Yen and i had head aches from commuting and too much walking. But it was still fun.

We visited preggy thelmy. Had extended girl talk. which the both of them did the talking. i was just a sounding board as always..hehe. I had a great time just listening to them laugh and shout at each other because they CAn be loud..er. I think I got extra listening skills than most people. I can survive not speaking for days. It's true. It's all about taking it all in.

give me gilmore girls

i missed "gilmore girls" already, ang bagal ng studio 23 ha. and it's not on cable so it's really frustrating..i just have to make do with the website transcripts and spoilers of the show. I love Lorelai and Rorie. I mean if I'll be a mom and that's a HUGE if, i'd be crazy weird like Lorelai. Someone who thinks of her daughter as a friend more than the "i'm the mom so you will obey every word i say" type. My mom and I had a big generation gap but then she was still cool. She was very good with people. She had this engaging personality and was so persuasive. i didn't inherit that at all. She was the happy extrovert. I was the loner, spaced-out kid who had books as playmates.

Another mother-daughter thingy i wanted was "Anywhere But Here" featuring Susan Sarandon and Natalie Portman. Always the kid who acts like an adult, always the mother who has seen it all and determined to live a great, worry-free life. I always get weepy after i watch it. It just strikes me everytime.

87 days before christmas

oh, i just can't wait for Christmas this year! there's the new house and my sister's family having a vacation here. and my birthday and thelma's baby shower and wedding. packed and ready to party..yihee.

i'm wearing an ukay find, a shirt with "Hollywood Ranch Market" in it. soo cool. and it's black with shimmery stars. i savor wash days in the middle of the week. well, not for long though. we will have uniform tees as well.

so, i'm trying to get busy and not to notice the passing hours till jocelle's here. and to get down to work and decorate. wehehe. today i'm feeling ok. better than ok i believe. mwah

kate hudson and natalie portman

these two are my favorite Hollywood girls. they are so divine. they have class. they are so beautiful. if i were a lesbian, i'd go completely crazy just seeing them onscreen. here are some fascinating facts i read over natalieportman.com: portman was supposed to play the role of a young American girl who had an affair with a Frenchman in Le Divorce but then she backed out and Kate Hudson was the replacement. It was made in Paris so i bought a dvd version of it. and then in "almost famous", Portman auditioned for the role of Penny Lane but Kate got the yummy part. that's so bizaare..

Here's Cameron Crowe's explanation: "Somewhere there’s some fascinating audition footage of Brad Pitt as Russell Hammond and Natalie Portman as Penny Lane. That would have been a completely different movie. One were Penny Lane would have been a kind of protected child and her naïveté was so important to all of them that they all protected her. Russell would have been the guy to break that spell and mistreat her. That was a version that would have been completely different from the version we have. Kind of a sadder Breakfast at Tiffany’s. I’m not sure it would have been better, it just would have been different. It would have been more of a fairy tale. That’s one of the amazing things about the casting process because you get to see all these different versions of your movie. Kate Hudson was the Penny Lane who was completely fresh, but you believe she had a past, which was perfect for the movie I wanted to make. That mix and match happens a lot and you have to make these huge casting decisions on the spur of the moment and they last forever. It’s funny, there are a million different versions of every movie floating around because the actors all come in and audition and work on the parts. So you have many different alternate realities to choose from."

Make me a casting director, i wanna create alternate realities too!

of something to sing about

i'm over the moon these days because ate kriz is in town and ate mar will be here in december. they're my choir sisters who've been away for quite some time in malaysia and roxas. and i sorely missed them.

so, amazing race had a spectacular finale. and i love them because they depicted our country as a tropical paradise. and rightly so. wahaha. love to go to el nido. it's awesome. oh and i loved that colin and christie didn't win. they're just too intensed. and too cocky. the two hour drama was so wow. it drained me. the shift from tropical to cool climate in alberta was just too much. it was so extreme!

they passed by bel-air en route to rizal monument at 3:30 am! darn, i was sleeping soundly and they were just there right in my backyard. darn!

of photos and memories

i was sorting out our family photos last night in preparation for the move, i had to throw out the really old albums and put all the photos in a shoe box. it's going to be my project, sort of a scrapbook once i find the time to do it. it was just funny seeing the pictures again, some people passed away already, some gone, most still around. and a lot of old scents, old feelings, sweet memories came surging back. it felt good. and kinda sad. one can never go back. only remember.

my dad just came back from the province to visit his father, dear lolo. he had a million stories and he was so happy. oh, i badly wanted to go too but couldn't because of work. maybe soon.

today's the amazing race season finale. who wil win? ohh, i heard it's on just about now but i want to watch it later after office. i might cry, i'm easily affected by tv show endings. i don't cry that much but i'm a tv nut. television is not an idiot box. only idiots watch you guessed it, moronic shows. garbage in, garbage out.

of home design

i think my head is gonna explode with all these home furnishing sites i've seen today. i'm so friggin' excited to decorate our new home. it would be fun to color coordinate and plan on how to make it really cozy and warm. i've got a million ideas but it has to be within budget. i think i'm aging due largely to the fact that i'm about to have house bills and other costs soon. so there's need to live just within my means and not over-spend.. ha!

last night, i was amused to find a letter to my mother. it was a business letter but still it was quite a shock to see that my mom's name was in it. like she's still here. she must be laughing with me too. and she is still with us, in dreams, even in my nieces' facial expressions. she's very much a part of us.

now that we're about to move, my bestfriend proposed a goodbye ceremony for my old abode which is the only place i stayed "since time immemorial". i mean this is a big step and i'm trying not to get too sentimental or worst, paranoid. i just want to focus on the stuff i'm gonna bring and buy for the new house. talk about huge money involved. i've established my color palette - purple, apple green, baby blue and yellow. if it isn't pastel, then i'm color blind.

sacred sundays

sundays are my solo time. it keeps me inspired, it is my oasis from the craziness of the week.i can read books, watch tv, go ukay and spend time with the ones that matter a whole lot to me. i recently read an article about Solo Sundays for Singles, how they cope with being alone and all that. nice to know that no matter what part we are in the world, we all experience the same things, the same yearnings and the uplifting love of God. especially on the 7th day.

i think i smell Christmas around the corner already. this early, we have kris kringle in the office na. and i'm looking forward to seeing my pamangkins and getting busy with my bestfriend's baby shower. and spending the holidays in our new home. yey!

race in manila and moving on

amazing race in manila is as awesome and as exciting as no other episodes in season 5. there was Colin getting frustrated with dear carabao, which the bowling moms called cow, there was the flight battle which led them all to the same hongkong to manila flight, edsa traffic, and the pinoy drivers became mute. our jeepney yey! as featured filipino pride. but i didn't really like luli as the pitstop girl. i mean come on..it's pure nepotism..the world might think..oh geez. never mind. i'm trying to be nice because good things are coming my way.

and i'm really pissed that i didn't know they were coming over. i could've seen the amazing crew at work. ang galing! wahoo..

and then there is the proverbial move. i'm moving. i'm sad. i'm happy. all at once. it really is time.

thankful

i thank God everyday for people who tolerate my "topaks" and understand my varied moods. i mean i don't even like me sometimes and yet they're still there for me. sob..sigh..smile

today i didn't feel like waking up. i just wanted to (music) sleep all day (music). but well, real life beckoned and hey, i love my job..wowee..so there..

"the Notebook" was ok. i loved how they met..there was some lull in the middle..and then it was great that they met again. the song "I'll Be Seein You" is beautiful. Some other film used that song, i just forgot the title.

of memories

"Love is an ideal thing, marriage a real thing; a confusion of the real with the ideal never goes unpunished."
—Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

i may sound like a total wooze but i'm just so delighted for my friends who make brazen decisions, i mean hey, you live once. you can never go back. ever. might as well feel how great it is to be alive.

i just watched "butterfly effect" last night. it's another memory-induced movie alongside "memento" and "eternal sunshine of the spotless mind". it's creepy and i loved it. you don't mess with memories. it will haunt you. wahhaaaa.

"bourne supremacy" was the slick spy film that blew me away. i chanced upon "bourne identity" on cable months before. i have a love-hate relationship with Matt Damon. he's yummy on this one. i always wanted to be a spy, thanks to Nancy Drew. Now it's Sydney Bristow.

one thing spies have in common is their great walk. it's like sashaying on catwalk. this confident stride that will terrify anyone who attempts to block their path. hmm. i walk like a man. might be a good start..

it's a brand new day!

i'm so excited..my friends and i are in the "friend shift" phase..each has her own path to take. at a crossroads. life-altering events..we may not see each other as often as we want but thank God for text and celfons. oh and thanks to chikka as well. it's such a comfort to know that we support each other's decision, wise or otherwise. hehe.

i spent lunch with dad and bro, real fun times with family keep me sane and in focus especially these days. now that i'm having more responsibilities, i need all the help i can get. and they're totally amazing. i'm so psyched.

and i'm back. at blogspot. i'm definitely gonna write more.

i'm 2nd 2 d left, d hapao rice terraces in banaue. u know me, i got my foot stuck in d mud. but i'd do it again, the sights were awesome! i can publish a book just by recalling the memories i have with this adventure..