Jason and Tristan

on the music front, I love Jason Mraz. He's funny, cool and his lyrics are soo catchy. Try "Geek in the Pink". Anyhoo, I chanced upon his girlfriend Tristan Prettyman's song over Jam 88.3. and it's so cute..

Shy That Way
You know you’re stunning
You’re absolutely stunning
And I’m running always running
And now I’m crying
It’s only cause I’m caring
And if you were more daring
Maybe you’d stop staring
And come over and talk to me
Tell me bout how you’ve been waiting so patiently
And how you tried but I just turned away
And I’ll say yeah well you know,
I’m shy that way

Shy that way
Maybe I’m shy that way

Ohh you know you’re stunning
You’re absolutely stunning
But you’re always runnin
But I’ll catch up to you
The way you keep your distance is
Keeping my interest
So I’ll keep it persistent
Ohh maybe someday
Someway, somehow in some town
We’ll get together and
We’ll break it down
And I’ll ask why you’ve been
so shy, gotta be that way
Maybe baby, oh love, I like it that way

Shy that way
You know I love you so shy,
Shy that way

So keep it comin comin comin comin
Shy that way

There’s always too much talking
And I wanna just keep walking
But I keep staring baby
Keep staring
Though I may not know the right things to say
I’ll get it out to you one day

I’m shy that way
You’re shy that way
Do you like it
Do you like it?
When I’m shy this way?
Yes I like it
Yes I like it
When you’re shy

Shy that way

I like it
I like it shy
You know it’s alright, it’s ok
Cause we’re
Shy that way…

Jakey

Oh. Heart stop. Beating. I'm in love. Don't like Tom Cruise anymore. George Clooney is still gorgeous but...I'm so into Jake Gyllenhaal now. I first laid eyes on him in the film "Moonlighting" starring Susan Sarandon and Dustin Hoffman. He with his puppy look, sad, haunting eyes, shy smile plus an endearing story reeled me in completely. I cannot believe he was the "Bubble Boy", he looked malnourished in that film. Then there was "The Day After Tomorrow" which made him recognizable at last. Based on my research, he auditioned for "Moulin Rouge" and almost got to play "Spiderman 2" but those films weren't meant to be his.

Hooray for "Brokeback Mountain", he's nominated for Oscars' Best Supporting Actor so I need to watch it because it's the first award to be given away that night! I got to watch him on Oprah last night. He was so adorable. Kirsten Dunst is crazy to let him go. capital CRAZY.

Love Day

as usual, it's the season to be in love and to love..In my former job, I used to work during Valentine's kasi peak season for shows and concerts. Now, 2 years na kong walang raket pag V day.

My memorable valentine's day (s) happened not with significant others (weird) but with my bestfriend Thelms. We used to watch horror films during this day because we didn't want to cry our hearts out watching sappy films back in the day when we were pathetic singletons (duh..i still am). We also stalked Claire Danes in her hotel room via phone call when she was here (yup, those days when she said Manila is a filthy place filled with cockroaches) and sent "My So-called Life" lines to my crush via beeper (yuck, how revealing our age ha..)

It's my son's first Valentine's. Geez, gotta photo op..bye.

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I am from

I am from a woman with a generous heart, overflowing with love and compassion. She did everything for her family and became more than just a light – she became a beacon which illuminated our lives. She dances and sings through life’s hardships, forgave people of her bitter past, betrayals which made her a stronger person. She adopted everyone in her care and fought for those she fiercely loved. She made friends with anyone, for her no one is a rotten fruit. She passed away at a ripe age of 61, still lingers within us and through us. She continues to guide all our life’s precarious choices by way of dreams and songs.

I am from a man who has a silent and calm disposition. He has remained meek and humble and honest. He who stayed loyal in his career path, steady and kind. He has provided me with companionship, support and adoration all through my days. He has accepted life with simplicity and strived to fulfill his role as a great father. He without speaking, has taught me so much. He is always there. Resilient. Like an anchor. Like a rock.

I am from a group of 4 siblings, each one different, each one distinct. But always united. Fights life’s storms armed with laughter and prayer. Strength to strength. Walang iwanan.

I am from a house made of pre-war materials and filled with historical value. It was a community of fun and mystery, intrigue and national pride. Long live Bel-Air.

I am from a clan of educators and landlords, a mixture of North Luzon and Vizayas. Bagoong and dried fish. Of sea and mountains and vast lands.

I am from a school composed of beautiful girls pretending to be boys and run by nuns. Of hymns and great teachers which changed my life. Of classmates that became friends for life.

I am from a university of the elite, which ironically made me more “masa”. Of various types of media and cool professors. Of Dopeyz and standing up for who I am. Of knowing my talents and maximizing it. Of photography, video, tv production, journalism and filmmaking. It is watching silent black and white films for hours on end.

I am from a church which is now a shrine. A place where the oldest Marian image in the country resides. Of which I can sing with all my heart and serve God no matter what it takes. Of people whom I will forever cherish and friendships I will never forget.

I am from books and music and films and television. I get lost in them. I am from travels and adventure. I am from dreams and goals.

I am from career path littered with entertainment. Of singing and performing. Of television shows and research. Of scripts and press releases. Of promos and corporate communication. Of websites and internet. Of events and workshops. Of being part of a great company in the making.

I am from relationships obscure and exhilarating. Of facing everything against all odds. Without rhyme or reason. Without rules but all passion. All heart. Which breaks into a myriad of pieces. But lives for another day. And another and another…

I am from a person I named Riley Matthew. A source of joy, fulfillment and hope. A gift that overwhelms me still.

I am from a God I call Dayspring. The One who refreshes my soul. The One I long for. The reason for my being. The grace which saves me everyday. The One who loves me. The One who will take me home.

Chchchanges

1.You look at your baby in the mirror instead of yourself. (well, we both look in the mirror and make faces!)

2. You finally stop to smell the roses, because your baby is in your arms. (my arms are getting toned due to the fact that he wants to be carried all the time now)

3. Where you once believed you were fearless, you now find yourself afraid. (yes, I’m afraid to die early because I wouldn’t get to meet his girlfriend and be bitchy at her..hehehe)

4. You're less self-involved and more self-motivated. (I now have a purpose..to feed him at 3 a.m. and let him sleep in my arms)

5. The sacrifices you thought you made to have a child no longer seem like sacrifices. (what sacrifice? C section—chicken lang yan! And the bloated feet – foot spa lang katapat nyan..)

6. You respect your body ... finally. (Hooray for fast metabolism!)

7. You have stronger opinions and are stronger willed. (this is awesome)

8. You respect your parents and love them in a new way. (thanks Dad, lov ya Mom!)

9. You find that your baby's pain feels much worse than your own. (ooh, making him drink meds..the worst)

10. You believe once again in the things you believed in as a child. (Hooray for Santa!)

11. You lose touch with the people in your life that you should have banished years ago. (I don’t have time for such nonsense..I’d rather play with my son)

12. Your heart breaks much more easily. (And I cry easily too..just seeing a mother-child photo or film)

13. You think of your baby 234,836,178,976 times a day. In fact, you're so busy with this that you forget everything else. (he’s in my ringtone, my message alert tone, my desktop, my fon wallpaper)

14. Every day is a surprise. (Mama..Mmmmm)

15. Bodily functions are no longer repulsive. In fact, they please you. (Hooray for poop!)

16. You think before you speak. (this is true)

17. You become a morning person. (this is so amazing! I used to hate waking up early, but now he wakes up earlier than I do)

18. If you have a son, you no longer curse men. (Been trying to understand men)

19. If you have a daughter, you hope she won't endure your same heartaches.

20. Your love becomes limitless, a superhuman power. (Amen to that)

sick

Riley is sick with pneumonia and primary complex. Poor little baby. On the outside, he's fine compared to last week when he had fever and laryngitis. As usual, I'm researching on it. I've read and read its symptoms, treatment and prevention. I've never been seriously sick my whole life. The one time I've been hospitalized was when I gave birth. That's it. Now I feel so incapable of handling a sick child. But he drinks his milk like usual, he plays and sleeps soundly. I've complained to my bestfriend many times how I'm so dumb with the mommy stuff. Being a first time mom herself, she just seem to fit the role so well. Knowing what to do and how to do it. I don't. I'm clueless. But then I know God gave me Riley for a purpose. And He will equip me with the "mommy enzyme".

Things I said I'd never do when I became a parent but I did

The title came from the Blogging Baby site. I got inspired so I have my own version: (Well, to start I really didn't know I'd become a parent so everything is new to me)..
1. humming nursery rhymes at work or when Rye isn't with me. He loves the Barney songs and it's in my head all the time even if I just saw Lea Salonga in concert, though she also sang mommy songs coz she's pregnant!
2. holding a traditional baby bag. I told myself I'll have a cool leather diaper bag whenever I go out but alas, who can resist the cutey blue Peter Rabbit?
3. hospital visits. It's a must since Rye has monthly pedia visits, but it still gives me the creeps. Hospitals are like another dimension, never know when I'm gonna pass out..
4. wanting to go home asap. Now this is really foreign territory. The urgency to go home to my baby once work is done or even when it's meeting with friends..you wish they'd talk faster or cry sooner so you can console and be done and go home to Rye! (my friends don't mind naman..hehe)
5. saving and organizing and cleaning. save the best and hardest for last. Messy me trying to tuck and fold, scrub and wash, living on a budget. Could it be true? I don't recognize me anymore.

taste of Reese

Watching the Golden Globe Awards is like taking at a peek at the Oscars. It's like getting invited to an intimate dinner formal and you get to see celebs! Honestly, I love it more than the Oscars. It's very straightforward with none of the frills and delays. Loved George Clooney's speech "hey, this is early..haven't had a drink yet". Haha.

Who wouldn't even envy Reese that night? She's smart, has 2 beautiful children, Best Actress winner, has million dollar paychecks, she even sings (too much..too much) and has Ryan Philippe to go home to. &@#%$^* di ba...
I got to see her Oprah guesting where she spoke of her English teacher who made her appreciate reading. She seems like the real deal. Very consistent. She's not mega-beautiful but she is very attractive. The southern belle works out its charm.

starbucks conversations

I had a pre-celebration date with Thelmsky Diwata, Jenny Diyosa and Ellaine the Saint. It's been a long, long time since we've spent an evening like that. We had dinner, movie (Palanca winner "Blue Moon" since it's the Filmfest season) and stayed at Starbucks 6750. My top Starbucks outlets are:
1. 6750
2. Bayview Hotel
3. Greenbelt 1
4. Robinson's Place
5. Adriatico Malate
6. Glorietta 4

I always have the longest, most stimulating, interesting and controversial talks in this coffee chain. I'm not a real coffee person, I only order frappucino and last night I had Peppermint Mocha Frappe. After a year of not having any.. Ahh...the best. We stayed till the branch closed, that late tlga. Pix to follow. The smell, the ambiance, the soothing music, the comfy couch --worth the price. I'm open to try other coffee shops but nothing beats Starbucks.

a blessed 2006

Happy New Year! I love the first week of January. There's the crisp, clean smell of my new 2006 planner waiting to be filled out with my scribbles. There's the first Mass of the year. And then there's my birthday. But before I get all senti, I just want to say that I'm so at peace (or maybe just tired from spending the day at Enchanted..hehe) I slept through New Year's Eve. First time to zonk out amidst the noise and revelry.

Also, I realized I'm not an angry person. You know the type who will get a heart attack from storing so much resentment and bitterness. I maybe mad for a day or two and would really do everything I can to vent my anger but then I'll forget about it and move on. And I'm so pleased that I'm no longer a slave to my possessions. I used to hold on to all my stuff - papers, cards, letters, clothes, accessories. It was all clutter. Now I just have the things I need and will think thrice before buying something for myself. But the biggest surprise of all-- I'm more organized now.Clap clap! Thanks to Riley who is fast accumulating tons of stuff too. So more space for him.

Resolutions..I want to speak out more. I have a lot of ideas in my head but couldn't really voiced it out because I don't know...Sometimes people who talk too much just overwhelm me. And when I get my turn, I just don't have the energy anymore. I wanted to take up public speaking. Or do more hosting.

I need to be assertive. People seem to have an impression that I'm "nice". Meaning meek and kind. Nothing wrong with that really but I have to be firm to be a leader. Naks.

I need to trust my instincts. Being a Mom just freaks me out especially when Rye gets sick. I need to decide fast because I'm responsible for him. Gosh me, responsible.

"fast becoming a USB world"

Today I came to work and got a surprise gift from a techy company - a USB card reader. Yey! Although I don't know how to use it and vaguely had an idea what it does, it still thrills me no end. And then I surfed about it, and I got swallowed by PC terms. Well, being in a techy industry sure has its perks but I still have a lot to learn. So far, I'm maintaining 4 personal blogs and 1 corporate blog (although I rarely post on Friendster), I have Multiply where I post my pix, YM and MSN messenger, 4 emails and a Chikka account. Whew. Don't be misled, I am a hermit at heart.

post Christmas greeting

It's the Eve of Christmas and even on the day itself and I didn't have load! Darn autoload service got corrupted..So everyone was greeting me through text and I had no answer. Zilch. It was so frustrating. So I just binged on food. Really felt like we were Greek coz what we had for Noche Buena was all meat.

It's Rye's first Xmas ever and his eyes grew even bigger (if that's even possible) as midnight came and watched as his cousins opened presents. He chewed on his gifts and was delighted with all the lights and sounds. Will post pics soon.

Happy holidays! To a better year and a better life. Ahead.

Rye at 7 months

I was browsing through other people's blogs today, it just occurred to me that they make lists all the time. Well, one item I can cross out my list is having a kid. Yihaa. My son turns 7 months today!
1. my pogi-to
2. my morning perky little person
3. my curly-haired cherub
4. smelly feet baby
5. my naughty spitter (is there such a word? yeah, he spits on me when i change his diaper)
6. the one who calls me Momma, Mommy, Ma, Mmmm just recently
7. the cutest live pillow I ever had

I'm excited about 2006. .

engagement notices

Just this week, I learned 2 friends of mine got engaged. Leah, who's a barkada in highschool and Armi, my friend from Elim which I haven't seen in 10 years but was able to find thanks to Friendster. This late 20s stage marks a series of life-altering events - being engaged, getting married, giving birth, getting promoted etc. etc.

It's fun to know how brilliant God is in coming up with a myriad of blessings for each of us. It might surprise or overwhelm at first but then everything falls into place eventually. Some people go the straight path with nary a crease or dent (but with their share of challenges too) or scar, some people like me may experience crisscross, zigzag turning points - bottomline we are still loved, we should be grateful and we should celebrate..

This coming Christmas, sit still and breathe. Even for just a few minutes. Savor the here and now. Ain't life grand?

birthday trivia

It's a month (yesterday to be exact) to go before my birthday. Mag-plug ba? Hehe. Anyway, I was born with two special features: first, I am a menopause baby. Mama was 40 years old when she learned she was pregnant with me. Imagine her surprise and dismay because (second fact) she was taking Ativan at the time. Now, Ativan is a prescription drug which according to my research is and I quote:

"Ativan is in the FDA pregnancy category D. This means that Ativan is known to be harmful to an unborn baby. Do not take this medication without first talking to your doctor if you are pregnant or could become pregnant during treatment.

• Ativan passes into breast milk. Do not take Ativan without first talking to your doctor if you are breast-feeding a baby."

Wow. I'm a double freak! Ultrasound wasn't popular in 1978 and my parents thought I had physical deformities. My father didn't even want to go to the nursery for fear of seeing me with no hands or something. That's why Mama wasn't allowed to breastfeed me. Thank goodness, I'm physically sound although I may be weirder than usual. Wink. Wink.

serendipity or something like it

Brief background, I love the singing group The Company since they released their very first single, "Everlasting Love". I've seen how they changed their members and those insane outfits. My cassette tape copy of Recycle Deluxe got eaten by my player or maybe just succumbed to it due to numerous playbacks. They seem so down to earth, intelligent and great artists even if they're from Ateneo (no pun intended). Their songs were part of my Center for Pop days, me singing "Muntik na Kitang Minahal" and "Now that I have You" before the film made it baduy.

Anyhow, I never seen them perform live at all. Never did our paths cross in the 3 years I spent in the concert scene. And whenever they have a concert, I wanted to go but couldn't for some reason. Well, they celebrated 20 years with a huge concert 2 months ago at the CCP. At the last minute, I wanted to watch. Thelms offered to come with me. But alas, it was sold out a day before. Poor me.

Fast forward. Thelms got the great job of being editor in chief (congrats sis, you deserve it!) and of course, the power of free tickets and invites. For her first gig, she got (surprise, surprise serendipity moment) the Company!
Yey, we're gonna watch. I'm gonna buy their CD anthology album and I'm gonna have their autographs. Yes, I didn't even do the autograph ritual with artists I've worked with such as Regine, Martin etc. But with them, I'll gladly do it.

Yes, Christmas is near!

eleanor

Eleanor is the right spelling of a common name which means "light". I, however was named Elynor due to my parents' name mix, me and my siblings all have different variations. Anyhow, eversince the Beatles' "Eleanor Rigby", there's no name song for me until TODAY! Heard it over the radio, it's not cheesy at all. It's alternative and cool, got the lyrics immediately and here it is:

Eleanor
sung by Low Millions

Fine, I understand, okay with me, if that's the plan.
You can take the stereo, the TV and the video
the bed the sheets and pillows, before you go.
But for now, unlock the door, what are we doin' all this for?

Let me make you dinner one last time,
then you'll go your way, and I'll go mine.
And I won't call you baby, anymore,won't call you baby,
like I did before,won't call you baby, anymore, Eleanor.

You left your smell, you left your taste,you left me here with my mistakes.
And I can't relate to what you say I've done,but just for you, I'll bite my tongue.
And I won't call you baby, anymore,won't call you baby
like I did before,won't call you baby, anymore, Eleanor.
Eleanor I miss you, Eleanor be well
Eleanor I wish you'd release me from your spell.

well, if you know me...you'd know this is soo apt. Zip lips now.

Rye as Justin Timberlake

Ok, when Rye wears this fisherman hat, he always reminds me of Justin Curly Haired Timberlake. So, here are the recent pix of Romina and Rye at 6 months. Romina is my bestfriend's daughter and as early as now, they are officially bestfriends too (whether they like it or not in the future doesn't really matter).

weeeeeh!

I'm at the end of the rainbow, there are no leprechauns...only pots and pots of gold a.k.a. blessings.

Watch me soar!