August thoughts

I've been looking at celebrity blogs lately - tv, radio..foreign and local and it's interesting. How I can relate to some of their thoughts, how I envy the house or the gadgets they have but mostly it's to really understand that they live normal, boring lives at times too. and that we're all humans with rants and what nots.

There's a new lesson I'm trying hard to know. It's about parental discipline. There are some things that you can't control like a gift of a gameboy, something which he certainly wanted to have since he learned how to play one. But if I have it my way, I still won't buy him an expensive toy like that. So now it's how to draw the line between playing computer games the whole day and playing in the park. Balance is the key...and he's just four.

I seriously need nature - the beach, trees, outdoors. It's something that my soul craves. And I'm gonna get it..

Going, Going, Gone

This month 3 people who are close to me are going away to 3 continents. Angel, my sister in law goes to Ireland tonight. On the 27th, it will be Ate Lydia to California and Jenny to Qatar. And it makes me feel happy and kind of sad. Happy since they will earn money and be with their loved ones. Sad because they will leave us behind. And less people to text about my rotten days or great kilig times.

Sometimes I want to be the one leaving than the one left behind. It's the feeling of abandonment and seeing the remnants of that empty space where she used to occupy. My first real heartbreak was when my sister went to the States when I was 12. She was my bestfriend (and still is), my idol, my crutch. I was inconsolable for weeks.

Up to now, I couldn't handle it when she and her family departs back to the U.S. I don't go to the airport with them. And even at this age, I still cry. I'm bad with goodbyes. Worst at it.

Daddy will also leave for the U.S. this latter part of the year. That would be tough. Gotta brace myself for that.

Flow

I catched a PAGCOR produced show called "Flow", from the makers of "Wanders". I haven't seen Wanders but it got great reviews. Flow is about a fusion of different forms of dance and acrobats. A concert circus if that's even a right term. There are Chinese contortionists, Filipino theater performers and international dancers - some look Latin american and African..

Riley had a grand time watching it. He loved the magic show with Eric Manna and the flying acts.

I miss the theater. I miss the rush of performing in front of a crowd. I miss the bright lights and the jitters just before stepping onstage.

Come what May

ahh May...There's Yen's wedding. Mother's Day. Rye's bday parties. Church fiesta. Lots and lots of happenings. How can you not be merry?

Summer Time

I can't believe I haven't posted anything in 2 months. Anyway, I'm back and that's what matters. A lot has happened. I watched the Eheads final set reunion concert, moved to a new office and went to Roxas City. Oh and have two new techy friends - Super nova and Lennie.

Weekends, I've been busy playing football with Rye and Dad or just hanging out at the park. Give me nature anytime. The smell of grass and leaves and the saltiness of the sea. Love it!

I'm also appreciating my old friendships that has weathered time and distance. Going to Roxas is a reunion for me and the Medinas - we are related that's for sure.

I have lots of plans this year. Learn Spanish. Go to another destination. Celebrate Rye's 4th birthday. soo cool.

Rafaholic

Over the years, I had quite a number of tennis crushes - Tim Henman, Carlos Moya, Pete Sampras but nothing compares to my fixation over Rafael Nadal. During Australian Open, I watched the semis - 5 hours and 14 minutes and the finals - 4 hours just for him. That's like a day in the office. And I sat there at the edge of my seat transfixed..

He's humble, simple and very loyal to his girlfriend Xisca in Mallorca, Spain. Always waiting for him after every match. Sigh. And he cooks. Double sigh.

Reading his blogs made me realized how normal he is even if he's number 1 in the world. Shucks.

Vamos Rafa! Can't wait to see you play again..

I could have written this song

PEOPLE ARE PEOPLE

I am the one who believes in all that you say
(in short, gullible to a fault)

I am the one who never wants to define herself
(hindi ako ma-PR, hindi ako pang-sales, but my work involves that)

I am the one who’s parallel, upfront, behind
(kahit saan, pwede, strike anywhere)

I am the one paddling like crazy through the night
(hmm, this one is kinda hazy..unless di ako makatulog for some reason)

Refine (mahinhin DAW ako), old time (old soul), colourblind (kasi malabo mata)

Big sign, do time, doesn’t rhyme (mix and match)

A lot, too much, standing tall (kahit maliit)

And I’m crying in the valley: “I shall never, ever fall!” (yes!)

People are people
and I feel so strong
People are people and I’m
going on

I am the one who stirs it up everytime (masaya pag exciting ang mundo)
I am the one who never know how close she is (as in on the brink na, clueless pa din)
I am the one who’d rather be dead than confess (kasi nga tyope ako)
I am the one trying to be good, wanting to be bad and so on (i'm bad at being bad)

Excess, temptress, big mess (when I'm in trouble, boy I'm IN it big time)
Phoney, lonely, it’s a test (yup, plastic minsan)
Be still my heart, don’t you fail (my heart and I are not friends right now)
And I’m crying on the stagefloor: “I will always prevail!” (naman!)

I’m going on…

My Birthday

I had the busiest birthday this year. Since it's midweek and we have a workshop, I just agreed to meet with my ex-ofcmates for dinner. I wasn't able to come because we had a deadline to meet, a role playing video due the next day. So my birthday came and went, hindi ko man lang naramdaman save for the text messages the whole day. And our VP who greeted me - he's also the speaker of the workshop.

Fast forward to today - work people pulled a fast one on me. I'm super touched. They surprised me with cake, a bouquet of red roses, a gift and food! Saya saya..I'm so thrilled. God is Good!

How to Deal with Grief..

A dear friend lost his mom to the same cause as my Mama - aneurism or cerebral hemorrhage. I was at a loss for words. How do you comfort someone who is feeling the same thing I felt almost 10 years ago..It's not easy. The guilt of not spending enough time because you believe she's sort of immortal, that she will always be there until you get married and have kids and share mommyhood stories with.. that you will get to know her as a person not just as a mom.. that you will take care of her when she's old and gray..

And she died at 61. Or in my friend's case - at 56. He was hoping to do a tribute on her milestone bday, spend quality time with her..

A mother's love goes on and on. Even amidst death. She will always be in his heart. Always...

And so I say let's spend time with the ones we love right now. at this moment and for the rest of our life. Let's not regret each talk or laughter shared. Priceless.

Over the weekend, I saw "Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants" and "It's All about Women" - whether you're just about to experience life or in the middle of it, a woman's resilience is very important and her faith that all will be well with God's help, her friends and family backing her up.

Last night, the biggest moon of the year called the Perigee - said hi to me in our window. And moonlight has been such an inspiration to me. Thank you God for 2009.

I'm feeling sick and healed all at the same breath..

First post for 09

I'm very grateful for 08 Lord. Though it's hard personally to give up being in control, I'm letting You handle it. Just because You know what's best for me...

Been selfish lately. Not the visible type. Just some thoughts swirling in my head. And then I want to dismiss them as quickly as possible. Hay..will be busy at work and some related to work I think. So yun.

Mixed feelings..happy kind of sad. I dunno why. 08 has been really spectacular. So saying goodbye to it was hard..I didn't even know it was 12 midnight already. Unlike previous years when there's even a countdown chenes. But I was happy that I got the greeting I wanted from this guy I craved..sigh.

So enuf of all drama. Good gracious, I got the gadgets I drooled over. Thanks alot ate and kuya Jo..

And my family - healthy and goofy..

my friends - getting fat (me included) but still beautiful!

so God is good..cheers to 2009!

2008 in retrospect

2008 was a blur..a great mind-boggling year with lots of thrill and drama. Been to the North a couple of times, been soo stressed about bigger responsibilities, "with talent comes less time" hahaha..

I've completed Simbang Gabi for the first time. Met Don Moen and Bo Sanchez - two major spiritual influences in my life. Reconciled with my bestfriend. Went back to Manila. "Iksperience" year.

If I were a garment, I'm super-stretched - at work and in church. Been doing stuff that I don't normally do and couldn't imagine handling. But it's good. God is good. He knows how I resist grown up stuff and yet they still happen.

My Dear Ilocos Region

I have conquered Hundred Islands and Pagudpud! Yahoo..

My Lakbayan grade is C-!

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up, up and away

rye and his purple chick


shoot with Gino of Chillspot


Thelma and Maro's home in Lipa, Batangas

what?!! it's been a month since my last blog? hay, been really busy with the marketing plan for 2009 and finally it's approved..yahoo! glory to God. now the fun part is the implementation..

the month has been crazy - tv shooting, gift shopping, party preparations and wow - a trip to the North again this loong weekend. Has it been a year since that fateful day...whopee..

I'm super excited for December..lots of social stuff happening and bonding with family. It's been awhile since we're all gathered together.

Weekend that Was

Casa Manila Museum

Plaza Fountain

Mass Wedding Music Team


Went to Intramuros with Jensky to check out the wedding reception venue of Mojo and the string quartet at San Agustin Church. We watched "Nights in Rodanthe" and had tuna pesto..yum yum..

Attended the mass wedding of our head office as singer..awoooh!

My ideal scene

"The Notebook" is my ultimate favorite scene..


Lindsay in "Georgia Rule"

I have a fascination for boats and a body of water - river or lake..Ewan ko ba. It's just so romantic and isolated.

swimming with the tide

rye and gab at the museo pambata

rye and how shopping is hard work

how Eid is masarap in tagalog

I have been so accepting of all the things and I mean ALL the things that are happening to me everyday. Letting go and letting God. I'm not resisting grace anymore. And it's soo grand.

Gossip Girl's Bad Hot Boy

Ok, so I think my crush on Chuck Bass, the ultimate scheming bad boy of "Gossip Girl" confirmed that I have this penchant for mayabang types. Boy next doors are just too blah for me..

When Chuck looks at Blair, hay..wanna faint..

Busy weekend

The past weekend was crazy! We had an exhibit at Megamall and a kiddie party for my inaanak. So I had Monday off and we went to Dinoland. Rye was dino happy!

1st weekend of Sept

the family gathered to mark Mama's 9th year death anniversary, to celebrate Ayla's 1st honor award and to sing EHeads hits..

the Sex and the City version of me, thelma, jenny and yen went to Makati and Pasig for a night out..to laugh, to rant, to get sad with, to celebrate friendship..

Rye plays the piano now, with drums and guitar on the side..I'm not sure if this because of "Camp Rock"..

Radio Tour

Last Friday, we had a radio studio visit - Love Radio, Yes FM, Radyo Natin and DZRH. I saw Tia Dely (who had a stroke the next day and passed away Monday - I wanted to have a photo taken with her but she was on air recording a drama), Joe Taruc and Ruth Abao who plugged our property.

Tuesday, we met Arnold Clavio, Susan Enriquez and Arnel Ignacio at DZBB radio station. It was my first time to visit GMA 7 compound. It was huge and had a great view of the city at 17th floor.

In college, during our Radio Production class, we produced a drama and I was tasked to bring some of the props. It was so much fun!