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No One

Alicia Keys

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try try to divide something so real
So till the end of time I'm telling you there is no one

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

Just the Two of Us

I see the crystal raindrops fall
And the beauty of it all
Is when the sun comes shining through
To make those rainbows in my mind
When I think of you some time
And I want to spend some time with you

/ Cmaj7 B7 Em / Dm7 Cmaj7 / B7 Em7 - / :

{Refrain}
Just the two of us
We can make it if we try
Just the two of us, just the two of us
Just the two of us
Building castles in the sky
Just the two of us, you and I

/ Cmaj7 B7 / Em7 Dm7 / Cmaj7 B7 Em - / :

We look for love, no time for tears
Wasted water's all that is
And it don't make no flowers grow
Good things might come to those who wait
Not to those who wait too late
We got to go for all we know

{Refrain}

I hear the crystal raindrops fall
On the window down the hall
And it becomes the morning dew
Darling, when the morning comes
And I see the morning sun
I want to be the one with you

{Refrain}
...Building big castles way on high...(up north hahaha)

Just the two of us
Just the two of us
We can make it, just the two of us
Let's get together, baby
Just the two of us
Just the two of us
We can make it, just the two of us
Just the two of us
We can make it, just the two of us
{Repeat last two lines to fade}

Theme song..:)

You Make Me

You make me wanna get up in the morning
You make me wanna stay up all night long
You make me wanna get up to the dancing
You make me wanna reach up to the sky
I feel so high

When I first met you, I read in you
Something special happened I never knew before
Was it in your eyes, feelings you can't disguise
Something's telling me that
Destiny knocked on my front door

It's better to believe that to let by
The happiness I feel inside
Don't let go
I know that you feel safe
Let passion grow
And this better day by day
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Is 2008 such a hapeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee new year?

You betcha.

I met Bo Sanchez last Friday. It was a great post bday surprise! Nagpa autograph pa ko and photo op and my hands were cold. Grabe. He has been a great spiritual mentor and I'm so glad he has inspired me to do my Life Wish List notebook. Been writing since last weekend. And will continue to enumerate the dreams of my life..

I can't believe I'm gonna quote Ferdinand E. Marcos but here it goes:

"Take me to Paoay!"

(pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee or Laoag :)

2007 in Retrospect

2007..drenched in utmost grace. New friends, experiences, places, renewed faithwalk. Dizzying pace and yet filled with serenity. Iam so, so amazed!

toured the country - Ilocos, Cebu and Davao for free..and there are fringe benefits ha..nakakatuwa. Now ko talaga narealized na pang countryside ang beauty ko. I think I'm gonna retire in the mountains or the sea, simple living with nature and my beloved family (Rye and soon to be chenes).

met a lot of people from different places - for an introvert and a self-proclaimed cloistered nun, that is a HUGE improvement. I've never smiled so much in my life..and it felt soo good

knowing my place in the sun - i now have a clearer picture of what I'm good at, of what I can offer the world (ano ba, kaweirdohan..)

more responsibilities on my lap - aba dapat lang kasi 3 decades na ko in just a few days noh..pero hindi naman masyadong halata kasi nakakabulag pa din ng bata..(ano ba, subplot itoh!)

enjoying friendships, family - dahil super busy ako, the quality time i spent with each important person in my life increases in value kasi todo kwento, todo bonding pag nagkita kami.

Rye surprises me no end
(mommy, ayaw ok - meaning he's not ok)all his sentences begin with "mommy"
he can sing! he really can carry a tune singing "beautiful girl" - suicidie (so double dead na)
he's funny..he will mimick what i say and then laugh at me!
he can manipulate kids except KT
he will charm you till you obey all his whims
he can create a flood in the house..thanks to the water dispenser
he will kiss you immediately after doing a bad deed

gratitude and love for the Lord - He has always been my Dayspring - the One who refreshes my soul and I will always be in the shadow of His wings

I'm sooo excited for 2008!

Going North

I will have my 1st Northern Exposure! Hello Laoag and Vigan..Naimbag nga aldaw yo, apo.

Excited na ko makabili ng sangkatutak na chichacorn at makatikim ng bagnet..Goodluck sa hiblood ko..

This year God has blessed me with trips in Davao, Cebu and now Luzon naman. I met a lot of new friends, became sociable again, enjoying my job to the highest level. At mas nachallenge ako to do better. Hindi ko namalayan matatapos na ang 2007, it was all soo fast..napakabuti ng taon na ito, lahat ng bagong experiences sobrang saya.

Ang aking Christmas gifts hindi pa nabibili! Yikes, panic mode na. I was teaching Rye to say "Merry Christmas" over the weekend and it sounded like "Pahimas". Pwede na rin di ba. Pahimas or touch in english..Touch others with love and joy. Hmm..pwede nga.

My and Rye's 1st Kiddie Mass at St Jo

I was excited to go to the Children's Mass yesterday. Rye was just an excuse to go. Hehe. I was tired of the usual adult mass which makes me want to sleep sometimes and late na pag Sunday night kaya the 3pm sked was just right. Ayun, Rye slept on the first half and was groggy awake the rest of the hour. But it was fun! May action songs yung Papuri, Santo and Kordero..lahat! And the gospel was explained simply and the priest was acting the part of the bible characters..the kids can participate in the question and answer portion during the sermon..There's also something so spiritual listening to a children's choir. Mas nafeel ko ang presence ni Lord.

Dati ko pang iniisip if I wanted to convert into a baptist Christian. Because there are certain beliefs that I really don't practice like regular confession, novenas and others. But then I love the Mass itself, the good rituals like Baptism, 1st communion and the devotion to Mama Mary. And Andrew Greeley always remind me through his books just how great it is being raised as a Catholic. It's also something that Mama passed on to me which made me who I am now. It's not just a religion. It's a way of life. Although maraming imperfections, I've come to terms with it.

I taught Rye how to do the Sign of the Cross. He wants to say "..and of the Son" only and "Anem". He Calls Jesus as "Jushush".

Anem.

Gab's Birthday shots

October survey

Name: A mix of my parents' names

Age: will always be a tween

What are you passionate about: Jesus, Films, music, books, writing

Most played songs: Hill Song and Corinne Bailey Rae

Heroine / Hero: My sister / My Dad

Best quality about me: I'm determined

The worst: I get distracted

Do you have direction? Yes..surreal nga lang

Last semi-sensible purchase: tokong as pambahay - could be used as jogging pants

If you could buy one thing right now it would be: Little Tyke slide for rye

Beach or mountains: Beach. Lap it up!

Sport: a little bit of badminton, pacute swimming, some basketball, table tennis

Movie that makes me cry: mother-daughter scenes with susan sarandon. And also the "stepmom" scene where julia roberts and susan talked about being the past and future of their daughter..oh oh..pass the towel please!

Apart from what you're doing now, what would be your dream job: It would Samantha Brown's show on Travel and Living..touring Europe for free!

Temptation you have successfully avoided thus far: compulsive shopping

Temptation you have succumbed to recently: junk food feast

The one thing you can never be: basta anything that needs immediate counting like being a cashier, a toll person..puro abono ako!

The one thing you strive to be: more patient

The one thing you struggle with the most: angry outburst

The most beautiful woman you've ever seen: My mom.

The best thing your mom taught you: Kindness

The best thing your dad taught you: Integrity

The thing you surprisingly enjoy doing: clipping kids' fingernails

What turns you on: witty, God fearing, cowboy

What turns you off: rude, mayabang, bad breath

Most pointless thing a girl can buy: useless treatments like pouty lips, breast enhancements... self esteem can never be bought!

Best thing a girl can buy: moisturizer and tweezer, plus sexy nail polish

Favorite sound: my son's laughter, shriek of joy, the way he calls me "mum" with a british accent to boot (malay ko kung san nya nakuha)

Worst sound: loud snoring or water dripping or clock ticking at night

Favorite word to hear: mwah

When no one's looking I like to: dance like a freak to any kind of music that's playing on the radio

What would the movie of your life be called: Life Like Lynette

What is the most ironic thing about yourself: I'm OC but don't show it..in my head, I've had it all figured out but can't execute it well enough. I'm a closet fashionista - I know the latest trends and yet can't wear it with ease..

What do you like most about yourself: I can do research like a spy
What do you hate most about yourself: I seem to attract the wrong type of guys.

One thing you will never be: whiner

Issue most important to you: street kids and programs for their benefit

What is the bravest thing you've done: love! hahaha

What is the one brave thing you've still yet to do: get married and face the in laws.

What's food for your soul? praise and worship songs, communing with nature

If you were to enter heaven, what would you like to hear at the pearly gates: "Hi there! Your Mama is having a homecoming feast for you at the mansion."

Life Notebook

Yesterday I bought a notebook from Papemelroti. This brand of recycled notebook has been witness to my life's most significant and mundane journal entries since I was twelve years old. So maybe I need to write again. I have been keeping a digital journal since 2004 but it's not the same. Just as a digital album is not as poignant as turning the pages of a real photo album. Call me backwards, but it's really something else.

My nephew had his 1st bday party yesterday. Looking at the next generation of our family, I feel all these mixed emotions..it's looking forward to the future and yet wanting everything to remain the same at least for a little while longer. Rye had so much fun spending time with his cousins. I hope they can preserve the friendship even when they've grown up or been separated by distance. Eight cousins in all..ranging from 22 to 1 year old. I pray they have a great life, bounded by faith and love.

Big Girls Don't Cry

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself instead of calamity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself instead of calamity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

This song is on my mind these days. A bad case of last song syndrome..

Times a-changing once again. It's been a really dizzying year for me. Wonderfully so. May term bang ganun..anywayz..Tama bang october na..I have a Christmas list but don't have time to shop or the budget to start shopping..hehe.

Rye 2.4

Rileyisms:

Suri, suri - sorry
Mouse - Mickey Mouse
Kitty - KT his cousin
Jushush - Jesus
Pepper - paper
Pakaw, pakaw - pacquiao or boxing

He loves Mickey Mouse Clubhouse, Handy Manny and other Disney shows especially High School Musical. He eats Daddy's fried rice, chicken liver, tilapia, adobo and peanuts. Love nya ang boxing, he would raise his fist and tries to box with anyone. Love nya ang cousin nyang si Gabby. Love nyang i-wrestling!

He loves lots of people. He's in his element when they are all over him. In short, bibo at pasikat. He knows how to turn on the aircon, how to plug electrical chenes at itapon ang lahat ng liquid mapa cologne, alcohol or lotion..

these days

these days are swamped. As in totally loaded. And then there will be last minute hostings and seminars. Like this week, may biglaang tie up with QTV, first time na may GMA network pips dito. And then today, I didn't know I had to attend a marketing seminar by the guru himself, Josiah Go. It's called Blue Ocean Strategy - one of the top 10 business concepts of all time. Apparently, hindi rin alam ng organizers that we are going to attend since we are not listed in their registration. It was supposedly exclusive for suppliers only. Kaya hindi kami pwede umatend.

Nakakaaliw, we had to wake up at 7am to go to MOA (the guards didn't know there was a seminar din..napakaconfusing ng umaga ko). We didn't know where to go, we didn't have an invitation. Armed only with a prayer, an encouraging text and my poor bladder which led us to the rest room inside the seminar venue which prompted us to sneak inside..voila! Instant gate crashers..

It was great to be surrounded with entrepreneurs and business bigwigs..parang feeling magaling sa math na rin ako. I learned a lot of marketing know how's. The free seminar should've cost around a thousand pesos. Ang catch we need to present what we learned and report it to management. wahh!

How Could I Ask for More?

I first heard this song in Elim, specifically Barbie Dumlao singing it on PY's show. It was soo beautiful. And hearing it again tonight after what, 15 years..soo amazing! I found a Christian radio station online and it played just now, sung by Cindy Morgan. Nawala ang headache ko.

How Could I Ask for More

There's nothing like the warmth of a summer afternoon
Waking to the sunlight, and being cradled by the moon
Catching fireflies at night
Building castles in the sand
Kissing Mama's face goodnight
Holding Daddy's hand
Thank you Lord, how could I ask for more

Running barefoot through the grass
A little hide and go seek
Being so in love, that you can hardly eat
Dancing in the dark, when there's no one else around
Being bundled 'neath the covers, watching snow
Fall to the ground
Thank you Lord, how could I ask for more

So many things I thought would bring me happiness
Some dreams that are realities today
Such an irony the things that mean the most to me
Are the memories that I've made along the way

So if there's anything I've learned
From this journey I am on
Simple truths will keep you going
Simple love will keep you strong
Cause there are questions without answers
Flames that never die
Heartaches we go through are often blessings in disguise
So thank you Lord, oh thank you Lord
How could I ask for more

(see, gotta hear it when you're feeling ungrateful or grumpy or having a major headache hahaha)

Rye and Nette Simpson

www.simpsonizeme.com - One of the coolest sites to come out this year! I grew up with Bart, he was my favorite character when the Simpsons came out in the early 90's. I haven't watch the film though...Ok, here is the Riley and Lynette Simpson pictorial. Enjoy simpsonizing yourself!

Halfway

I just got back from a 2 week spiritual sojourn called the Halfway House Program, sponsored by the company and I felt like I'm reborn all over again. I got renewed or accepted Jesus as personal Lord and Savior when I was 14 years old. Back then I was in spiritual high, going to church service thrice a week. I was so hungry for the Word of God. Until college and work ate most of my time and simply got too busy.

I went back to choir just before my Mama passed away in 1999. But then the world just got too tempting with lots of fleeting fancies that I took the Lord for granted. Up until 2 years ago when I was down in the pits of darkness. It was the culmination of a troubled life. And the Lord just scooped me out and kept me in the shelter of His wings.

Sa Halfway House, confiscated ang cellfon, bawal magwork unless super urgent, 6:00 am ang start ng activity kaya 4.30 am pa lang gising na ko. Merong lectures, praise and worship, inner healing, deliverance (eto yung ma-action at madramang tagpo) and commissioning of the Holy Spirit. I got the gift of intercession - praying for other people's burdens and I think evangelism. Sana, sana..

Ang saya ng batch namin - puro makukulet na comedian hahaha! Mang Joseph - pinasaya mo kaming lahat, kakaiba ka! Saludo ako sa lahat ng servants lalo na kay Pastor Edmund and Sister Shirley. God bless you for helping save souls for Christ.

Now I'm back to work, back to the real world and still reeling from the joy of praise and worship for 8 straight days, meditating on God's Word and loving fellowship with batch 50 (we're gold!).

I'm going the whole 9 yards for you Lord, hindi lang halfway! Isasama ko si Riley and we will be a household of faith. Amen.

Be Bench Presscon

We've attended the Be Bench: The Next Model Search and it felt like old times when I used to work for a concert production company. Syempre, picturan with artistas (na hindi ko ginawa noon, ewan ko bat natuwa na kong gawin ngayon) - mas kinilig pa ko kay Christian Bautista kesa kay Sam Milby kasi I was watching his concert dvd just that weekend and sobrang gaganda ng songs dun. And he was really nice pati naman si Sam eh, though a bit shy. And I was so happy to see Haydee, my friend since elementary days pa kasi haven't seen her since 2004.

Worth Going to Prison For

My new love - Wentworth Miller of Prison Break! Dati ko pa syang nakikita but haven't found the time to watch PB until 2 weeks ago. Although I saw the "Human Stain" in which he played the young Anthony Hopkins. Oh such beautiful eyes. Oh perfection.

Basketball has been my favorite sport watching activity for as long as I could remember. At 10 years old my parents brought me to Rizal Stadium to watch Ronnie Magsanoc(my 2nd cousin) play in the UAAP. The UP-UE match was a classic finish. After that, it was PBL and the PBA. How I loathed Ginebra during that time. There's the rush of excitement watching it live and winning it by a just a point or two or even a 3 pointer.

During college, it was just sheer heartbreak losing over UST. And having googoo eyes at Jason Webb and Luigi Trillo.

Yesterday, I had fun watching the Jones Cup with Team Pilipinas winning against hometown favorite Taipei. All my good manners flew out the window when I watch a game. I cussed, I scream, I jumped and I howl like a man.

And Rye is soo amazed. He's now a basketball fan too. He says "shoot" and then proceeds to dunk in his mini court.

Cool.

10 Ways to beat stress

1. Accept your imperfections and go ahead inspite of them.

2. Avoid fighting for anything that's really not worth it. Don't squander your energy on semi-important things.

3. Learn and follow organizing principles.

4. Say "no" more often.

5. Get rid of a lot.

6. Don't gather much.

7. Don't keep much.

8. Value simplicity in your lifestyle.

9. Don't sweat the little things.

10. Be grateful.

-adapted from Organizing for life by Sandra Fellton (Nevell)

I'm not sure if I'm stressed. Just out of sorts. Italy dreaming. Wanting frappe and a good conversation. Missing Glorietta and Greenbelt.

Lea's Site

I thought I was having a slow day today, just browsing which resto to have advance Fathers' Day dinner with Dad and the haws people..and voila!

I stumbled upon Lea Salonga's Multiply site with tons and tons of photos..yeeha

http://bigsis222.multiply.com

This early, I'm actually preparing for Christmas. Kasi maraming tao ngayon ang gusto kong bilhan ng gifts. And yen will bake some goodies as part of the gift items so sana talaga pasok sa budget. I also found a new place where I can buy really cool clothes at bargain prices pero hindi ukay ha.

Been seriously thinking of Bo Sanchez's Catholic Filipino Academy - home schooling for Rye. I know it's about 2 years to go but tuition is soo expensive in the schools and yet education is not as good as it should be. Until grade school lang siguro ang home study kasi mas masaya ang high school in the traditional sense eh. And he's more equipped na to handle life..

Sana lang I could be a credible "teacher". I'm looking forward to lots and lots of field trips. Like if we study history, we'd go to the actual places where the action happened that's just near di ba..ang cool nun! Tapos madaming madaming reading assignments na parang isang buong library ang reading list nya.

Pag summer he'll be exposed to kids his own age kasi I'll enroll him in any art/music class or sports clinic of his choice. So far, that's how I've planned it. I'm taking it one step at a time.

Wow Philippines

Dami dami ko pang lugar sa Pilipinas na dapat makita. And so I hereby declare that every year on my birthday, I would visit one destination and support the local tourism industry. I'll start with Corregidor...

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Beyond the Sea

Somewhere beyond the sea
Somewhere waiting for me
My lover stands on golden sands
And watches the ships that go sailing

Somewhere beyond the sea
He's there watching for me
If I could fly like birds on high
Then straight to his arms I'd go sailing

It's far beyond the stars,
It's near beyond the moon
I know beyond a doubt
My heart will lead me there soon

We'll meet beyond the shore
We'll kiss just like before
Happy we will be beyond the sea
And never again I'll go sailing

I know beyond a doubt
My heart will lead me there soon
We'll meet, I know we'll meet beyond the shore
We'll kiss just as before
Happy we will be beyond the sea
And never again I'll go sailing

No more sailing
So long, sailing, sailing, no more sailing
Good-bye, farewell my friend, no more sailing

Such a hopeful song, I didn't realized it until now.

My Mot

For 2 amazing years, you have showered me with immense joy.

You who came at the most hectic time of my life (adjusting to a new job, moving to a new house, ending a relationship, ate's homecoming), two scary spottings, fetal distress, pre-eclampsia which led to an emergency CS - whew!

...stuck with me and held on for dear life. You taught me how to be strong. Hence, your name Riley. Courage to the end.

For 2 amazing years you have given me unconditional love.

You who had to endure my clumsy mothering skills - from diaper rash to new infant milk allergies and wanting to quit being your mom at 3am over colic and incessant crying, still gazed at me with pure adoration and how!

For 2 amazing years you have provided me with stretches of laugh lines.

You who call Shrek an "okoy", wakes up at 5am smiling and eager to go outside, plays at the park but not wanting to slide, dances to ABS CBN's summer song and calls me Momommy - as in Wowowee. You made me laugh like no other guy can.

For 2 amazing years you made me a better person.

I didn't care about a lot of things before. Ako'y isang malaking dedma. I do what I want and don't want to be disturbed. Period. But when you came, I just wanted this world to be a better place for you. I don't want to die just yet so I can see you grow. I'm also praying to God that you would have a greater life than me (although I've been so much blessed din), more opportunities and all.

For 2 amazing years you made me want to aim bigger dreams for you.

I want us to travel together and see the world! I want you to be good in math. I want you to be a well-rounded person. Sana you'll learn a musical instrument. Or play a sport. Of your choice. I won't force you to do something you don't want to do. That's not how I was raised (thank you Mama and Daddy).

For 2 amazing years you kept me a domesticated person.

Home buddy naman ako but during weekends, I want to go out as much as possible and as long as my budget would allow me. But when you came along, I never did want to go even to the mall without you. And had my appointments squeezed in a day or even cancel night outs. The only time I did go to a bar again was in Davao (mandatory pa yun) and I was so out of place. I was content seeing you as you go about your milestone moments or watch you play and read (more of scan books) and those hohum things.

For 2 amazing years.

Thank you.

Allow me to thank these people too:

Daddy Dad: for taking care of you the whole day and watching endless Barney cds

Ate Elma and Kuya Jo: for treating you as another one of their own kid (nagselos nga si Jocelle eh)

Teret: for taking you to the mall ALONE(a feat which I haven't done pa nga) and arranging your clothes and trimming your nails

Kuya Bong: for buying pasalubong - a cool Toy Story car in Disney HK (ako nga walang something eh)

Ate Susan: for taking care of you and calling you her bunso

G-Anne: for taking countless photos and videos of you in her phone (ako nga nag grab na lang ng images pra sa multiply ko eh)

Ayla: for being your 2nd mom when you stayed in the hotel and watching over you when you swim

Jundee and Angel: for making alaga din and buying food pag nag grocery for gab

Yen: for giving you a lot of stuff and pampering you with kisses and for being the nth mother (ang daming nanay ni rye)

Jen and Jamal: for giving Rye a glimpse of the Moslem ways and being a hands on Ninang

To my Mot, Toot toot, Rarye, bert, Matmat: Happy Birthday! Let's go dizzy with fun..

3 days before Rye 2.0

So, I've been really trying not to plan Rye's bday but it can't be helped. the un-O.C. me needs to prep for my son's birthday. Yesterday I gave him a Shrek toy thanks to McDo Happy Meal. Made him so happy.

I was having the usual working day yesterday when I accidentally learned that this person shares the same birthday with Rye. Of all days in the calendar di ba..

This guy I met in Cebu. That's why I wanted to go to Bora. Coz he lives in Cebu but his work requires (oh the pain) him to frequent the island paradise. Dapat isang buong journal entry nga ito. Ngunit hindi ko na nagawa.

Eck!

Land of the Loving

Deep in your eyes is a promise
Love can be ours if we want it
Starting tonight ev'ry dream I ever knew
Here in your arms I'm believing
Fin'lly my life has a meaning of its own
Here in the land of loving I am home.

I was alone in the city
Searchin' for someone to find me
Cold empty nights and a million strangers' eyes
Here in your arms I'm beginning
To leave behind all the loneliness I knew
Here in the land of loving there is you.

In this simple room magic is made
Though the world seems unchanged
Leave the lights on I'm a bit afraid
This might be just a sweet dream.
Deep in the night love is growing
Though I had no way of knowing
That when I found you I found everything I need
Here in your love I'll be staying
Finally my love won't be living all alone
Here in the land of the loving I am home

- I love this song! It's a beautiful revival sung by Lea in her Inspired album.

I love You Lord. Your love is awesome. Awe-standing. Awe-mazing.

Mother's day is fast approaching and I am pure gooey sentimental mush. I'm senti at the thought of being a Mom but more of missing my Mama.

Treated my family for a lil bit of R & R. Sequestered in a hotel room. Nothing to do but sleep, swim and eat. Not necessarily in that order. But it was fun. I still wish Mama was physically here so she can enjoy the fruits of my labor.

Oh, but it was worth seeing the light in my father's eyes..

Rye and Buh-Bye

My morning ritual consists of Rye waking up just after I've taken a bath, giving him to Dad so I can change for work clothes, having breakfast together or him just watching "Breakfast" and then they would send me off to get tryke. Sometimes he'd cry as part of the usual separation anxiety.

But now he's just content watching tv and saying "buh bye" and looking at me briefly. Sigh. He's really a toddler now. He shrieks like one, he wants to have his way all the time and he's getting tall.

He knows the parts of his face. He loves to read and draw on any available surface. Just about anywhere (poor wall, poor sofa). And he loves to eat rice. He loves cars. He drinks water a lot. And eats my super sour sinigang with matching kilig. He's not jealous of baby Gab and he doesn't hurt kids.

I still can't believe he's turning 2 next month. It's too fast. Too soon. Di ko pa alam how to celebrate his birthday. Pero excited na ko.

America: GunFULL society

My heart is breaking for those who died at Virginia Tech. I saw "Bowling at Columbine" a few years before and I'm still horrified as to how these kids get guns easily and have so much rage in their hearts to shoot and kill on purpose. What kind of society produces such mean killling machines? And they're just KIDS.

Is it the bullying they receive from fellow students? How hard is it to go to school and get picked on everyday when you're not cool or popular enough? Are the kids of America absolutely clueless of their bad treatment of the uncool?

Is it the violence in videogames or movies? Tell us please. The world wants to know.

My brother in law in the US said he'll bring my nephews here to study high school.

And I sighed in utmost relief.

WinWin

Included in my ideal guy list (super shortlisted lang yan) is none other than my dear old cousin Win. The first time I saw him was when our Lolo Pulis died and we were just 3 and 4 years old. After that, hindi na kami nagkita at all. Yung next was when our uncle died, medyo grim di ba but it was the start of a great friendship. Si Win helped me with my career path, tapos sunod sunod na yun.

Pati sa gimik, relationship advice at kung anu ano pa. Sya yung kasama ko from taping, to Malate, to audition pati ang pagkaloka ko meeting Lea Salonga up close and watching Miss Saigon. He never fails to make me smile, laugh and everything in between. Here's to hanging out at Starbucks UN and Greenbelt 1. He tried to right the wrong in my life but I was just soo damn stubborn and yet he never judged me. He just silently prayed for me to come around. And I did in God's time.

I knew he was there for me throughout my struggle.

When he got married (buti na lang he waited for the right girl to come along), hindi ako nakapunta kasi birthday din ni Rye yun but I wanted to be there. Being an only child, alam ko super excited na sya to be a dad soon. Finally. It's going to be such a blast.

Sabi nya noon sa testimonial nya for me, "masasaktan ang magpapaiyak sa pinsan ko" and that "she reminds me of God's goodness in the world". It was enough to make me cry kasi nakakatouch talaga. Don't worry cuz, pinaiyak ko din ang nag-cause ng heartbreak sa yo! (i'm sooo bad).

Nakakatuwa lang that he (and Kay) ang mga kamag-anak ko na malapit ko rin na friends. Although we don't get to see each other as often as before( but I think that's gonna change yahoo!) hindi pa rin magbabago ang samahan namin. Ngayon lalo na mga magulang na kami.

I want to thank the Lord for Win. He's been such a blessing.

Life with Win is a win-win situation.

What is Easter?

What is Easter?

A Sunday where the sun shines a bit brighter than usual

Mass with family – Rye screaming to hold the candle and the whole church looks at him

waking up at 6am to give wide awake Rye to Dad and sleep again

watching 3 Sunday TV Masses because I'm spying on the latest choir songs

eating tuyo, tinapa, fried talong and peanuts

listening to Rye say “Rabbit” “Monkey” and “Viva” over and over

getting a phone call from my sister

watching dvds while having chips overload

reading (hurrah!) the book on my bedside table that has accumulated dust already

tickling Rye and watching him dive on top of his cousins

laughing at baby Gab who looks like comedian “Balot”

thanking God for saving me and the rest of humanity

Nami Cebu

I'd just have to say: if I can move to another city here in the country, it's gotta be Cebu! Less traffic, less people but beautiful ones I tell you, more food and they have a sense of style that I can't define.
9 days in Cebu kept me in good spirits (though I missed my Rye soo much) especially when I laid eyes on Plantation Bay at night. It's pretty romantic. Sigh.

Went to the Taoist Temple and found great accessories in Colon.

Here's our food trips:
Bo's Coffee Club - raspberry iced tea
Golden Cowrie - tuna belly and garlic clams
Krua Thai - crispy beef (tastes like crispy pata)
Larsian - street ihaw-ihaw (chicken etc.)
Tomato - pana cotta (leche flan ice cream)
Dimsum Break - great chinese food
Abuhaw - in IT Park, love sizzling pochero
Venetian Coffee - choco latte
AA - sugba
Bigby's - first discovered in Davao and now in Ayala Cebu
MT Korean Resto - my first on a low dining table
Harbour City - chinese ulet
Bean Date - moist choco cake and strawberry shortcake
Roma Mia - chef's pizza
Lami-ah - Filipino resto with a cultural show

Dami ko pang kwento. I just need to adjust pa my sensory overload. And download the pics..

Davao Travel Blog

Davao is clean. That's the first thing I noticed. Walang kalat sa streets. The best sa food. Been in Harana Resto, Jack's Ridge - overlooking the whole city at may WWII history pa, Miggy's Grill at Times Beach - with the waves lapping while we're eating, gimik at Pop's (although I felt so ancient there kasi puro mga JS Prom highschoolers ang andun), lunch at Bigby's (wla pa silang branch here in Manila but the food is great and the theme is ala-Moulin Rouge so cool!) Meron ding shop called Mags where the clothes are great at cheaper compared dito.

We attended presscons at The Marco Polo Hotel and Royal Mandaya. On the last day, we had a city tour and passed by the church that's shaped like a ship and looks like a mosque din meaning Muslims and Christians live in harmony in Davao. Syempre punta kami sa batik store with lots of great finds na bracelets and other trinkets. Since wla naman akong budget tlga, puro mga small anik-anik lang ang nabili ko. And of course the pomelo, which I had a stomachache for eating just one! Eh kasi nung umaga ko kinain eh. Ayan tuloy. Pumunta din kami sa Lola Abon's durian sweets.

Super pagod pero super happy din. The travel show was fun kahit sumakit ang paa ko katatayo at kakabigay ng flyers sa mga umatend. Ang dami ko ring kinuhang flyers kasi malay mo mega fly kami ni Riley next time di ba. Finally, nakapunta na kong Mindanao. Thank You Lord. Hindi ko tlga expect na makakasama ako but You made it all happen!

Next stop: Cebu! (after 7 years)

I'm living the life of Lorelai Gilmore!

Rye dictionary

Please refer to the translation on the right side:

Baba – Bye
Mommy / Mama – me
Daddy – my daddy dad
Pooh – Winnie the Pooh
Coocoo – Blues Clues puppy
Anye-anye – Give me, I want
Abook – book
Wow - !
Ok - !

He's into Blues Clues now. He's obssessed with the images on his shirt / pajama. He knows how to act like he's crying to get what he wants. He loves to just talk and make "angkas" on the bike. He's smitten with the guitar and the microphone.

Rye's 1st haircut

I thought I couldn't do it. I thought I was gonna cry. I thought I would delay it further. But I knew it was time. He acted like a grown-up. He was too mature, "di ko kaya"...

Birthday Week

Jan 2 - Starbucks night with Yen, Jen and Jamal (despedida)

Jan 4 - 1st Thursday Mass of the year / bday treat of Tagumpay

Jan 5 - Treat of Kuya Obet with Yen's family and Pyro Olympics

Jan 6 - Mexican theme party at home with the whole family and videoke

Jan 7 - My real bday spent with Riley's Ninangs, Sunday Mass with Dad and Choco Sansrival c/o Tamay

Jan 8 - Office treat together with Sir, Mam Jean and Ms. Merlie

How's that huh! So blessed. So undeserving. So overwhelmed. So grateful.

Thank you for the greetings, the gifts and the wishes. I blew my 1st cake using a vigil candle and at home, it's the aromatherapy candle on top of a melting double dutch ice cream care of jen. talk about weird. and my son is hyper, my mascot!

Even if people think I'm 30 (heller), I'm just soo happy. The type of happy that's serene, accepting and my heart swelled twice its size.

Bookish (Book Fetish)

If there's one essential lesson I could pass on to my kid - it's my love for books. I'd rather spend my last money on a book than clothes or food. That's why going to Book Sale and Power Books remain my weakest link, my sweet temptation whenever I go to the mall. I'm itching to buy the Anita Shreve and David Sedaris works on Sale. It's another birthday gift for myself to justify this impulse buying. Yet again.

I got lucky with Paulo Coelho's Pilgrimage. From P375 down to P129. Great find!

I'm reading it slowly. To digest everything.

Welcome 2007

I spent New Year's Eve filled with fireworks, wine, food that Mama used to prepare so it's like she's still alive (pancit bihon, lumpiang shanghai, macaroni salad and fried chicken) and dancing till 2am with Dad, Teret, Yen and of course Rye. I forgot to take pics though.

What I do have are New Year's Day pics of Rye. We spent the 1st day of the year sleeping since he also stayed up till 3am, watching and reading Barney, eating left-overs, tickling and hugging.

I'm having mixed feelings this new year. 2006 had been good to me. Very good in fact. I want to wish for a better 2007. I want to feel excited that there is something in store for me, something big, the mingling of tears-laughter-smile-snort variety. I can just feel it. I hope. Fingers crossed and wish on a chicken bone. But God is the God of good surprises. Surprise me LORD!

Busy busyhan

I'm busy with lotsa things - work load that needs to be done this week, there's our company Christmas party where I'm part of the organizing committee, a wedding of Yen's brother and I'm the emcee, gifts that need to be purchased and the noche buena preparations. And I still have to think of Rye's gift too. But I love December. It's so cheery and the air's so cool.

Rye's latest antic is dancing to Boom Tarat. I know I've been very vocal that I dislike Willy and his deadly show but it was Len who taught him that. But it's cute though. Especially at 5.45 am.

I brought Rye to the office and to the church party, he was such a show-off! He wasn't overwhelmed at all even if kids were fussing over him, trying to carry him and all. Buti na lang at hindi takot sa tao. And the weird thing is he's got more cash than I am. Talk about unfair!

Everyone was saying he looked like a girl coz of his long hair. But I still couldn't deal with having his first hair cut coz that would mean he's not a baby anymore. And he will look like a toddler already. And I can't bear that yet. Di ko kaya. And besides, I love his curls. I wanted curls when I was a kid.

I love this year's holiday season. It's better compared to last year. I feel soo blessed.

Oh, and I'm playing badminton with the office pips. Gotta shape up. Ouch. Muscles. Sore.

Top 10 Picks

Been reading Patty's blog and got inspired with her top 10. So this is my list..

Top ten

1. Natalie Portman – beauty and brains, very intimidating in Closer
2. Kate Hudson – fresh and vibrant, loved her in Almost Famous – she made me cry in her delivery of “what kind of beer?”
3. Kimberly Williams – see previous entry
4. Angelina Jolie – her sexiness is so blatant even when she’s fully clothed
5. Ashley Judd – I love her smile, her low voice
6. Mikee Cojuangco – her simplicity just reels me in, super charming
7. Lea Salonga – wala na kong masabi
8. Julia Ormond – I saw her first in Legends of the Fall and then in First Knight, breathtakingly beautiful
9. Gloria Romero – the classic beauty, ageless
10. Evangeline Lily – I love her face, her body – anyone would want to get lost in an island with her

Top 10 Guys
1. Tom Cruise – since Topgun I was gone!
2. George Clooney – ER days when he was canoodling in the trauma room with Nurse Hathaway
3. Patrick Dempsey – loved him when he was a teenager, got smitten again when I saw him in Lucky 7 and now in Grey’s
4. Orlando Bloom – he was gorgeous in LOTR but oh so sexy in Elizabethtown
5. Jake Gyllenhaal – his eyes were baiting me in Moonlight Mile
6. Wentworth Miller – haven’t seen a whole episode of Prison Break but watched him in The Human Stain – gorgeous, reminds me of someone hehe
7. Matthew Fox – saw him first in Party of Five but loved him in LOST
8. Richard Gere – fell in love with him in Pretty Woman and on and on
9. Keanu Reeves – he was the dorky fellow in Bill and Ted’s Bogus Journey but he was the hunka babe in A Walk in the Clouds
10. Aga Muhlach - since Bagets till now, will always be a fan

I don't know if there's a pattern with these choices, basta they're beautiful. They make me want to fall in love, they inspire me..

1 year and 6 months

Rye celebrated his 18 month mark by attending a Jollibee bday party of his good friend Andrei. He just stared at Jollibee, was more interested munching his Chickenjoy and dancing to the music. I think Rye has made me more sociable. He has "forced" me to mingle. Therefore, he has made me more human. Hahaha.

Trivia:

• gives back his bottle to me after he's done feeding
• whispers back when I whisper first
• claps his hands while watching "Philippine Idol"
• knows how to play ball
• calls me "Meeee.." which I think is short for Mommy
• says "Ah-nyeee" when he wants something
• knows the sound of an airplane
• immitates the sneezing sound "Acheee" and laughs when he sneezes
• talks in a questioning tone
• fond of tails and wheels
• uses the cd as "bunot" - so some of my poor cds now have hideous scratch marks and can't be played
• when feeding, he lets me smell his feet (my favorite part)
• pikon
• knows when I'm inside the toilet and pounds the door
• loves to brush his teeth
• loves to take a bath and sprinkles water to the poor person giving him a bath (me!)
• always mistaken for a girl due to his uncut curly hair
• when I come home, he always claps his hands (awww)

wala lang

Ngayon ko lang na-realized that I have a problem with "normalcy" or plateau moments. Ung tipong steady lang, walang nangyayaring kakaiba. I have this excitement addiction. Ung dapat may weird na situation or something new all the time that's happening to me. Kahit negative basta it would make my heart beat faster or have this adrenalin rush. Bored na bored ako when the week passes na stay put lang ako. Gusto kong maging reporter dati. I imagined travelling to war-torn places and barely escape being shot, ma-action. Madrama. Gusto ko noon ng documentary. Ang sabi ko sa Probe ako magwork. Kasi idol ko yung 2nd cousin kong si Kara Magsanoc-Alikpala (yes, ung nanay nya ang Editor in chief ng Inquirer).

Pero di ko alam kung bakit napunta ko sa pang-showbiz, pang-lifestyle na klase ng work. Tapos natuwa din ako sa PBA noon. Gusto kong magtrabaho sa Vintage Sports. Nag-struggle na din ako nun, parang nababawan ako sa ginagawa ko. But then kung makakapagpasaya naman ng tao ung show o kaya matutong kumanta, I think may kabuluhan din di ba. Tsaka pag performance night, proud na proud ung mga parents sa anak nila. As coach (kahit na feeling ko kulang ako sa credentials), fulfilling yun sobra.

I'm still wondering kung ano pang field of work ang pwede kong gawin. Ung marketing nga nagulat ako kasi wala naman akong subject na ganito at all nung college. It's great to learn as I go along. Wag lang akong magbenta kasi di ako magaling mag convince or mag helpdesk kasi mahihiblood lang ako. Ok na ko sa research at magsulat. At gumawa ng radio ad. At syempre kumanta for a living. Gusto ko magback up. Dream ko yun. Yung anonymous ka pero mas magaling ka sa lead singer. bwahaha.

Kaya nga natatawa ko ngayon. Kasi my weekends are the same unless I have to really go to an important appointment. Bond with Rye, watch tv or film, read a book and sleep. Mas gusto ko pang matulog ngayon kesa lumabas. Kaya nga nung nag-Malate kami, namiss ko ung place pero at the same time, I knew I could never be as carefree or as puyat or as tipsy tulad ng dati. Iba na talaga. Pero di ako nag-regret (motto ko yan kahit ayaw maniwala ng iba) kasi na-enjoy ko naman lahat eh. Hinihintay ko lang na maglakad ng maayos si Rye bago maglakwatsa kasama sya. Naglalakad na sya pero pag trip nya lang tsaka pag may nanonood. Pasikat nga.

Walang pattern itong entry ko pero I think the bottom line is I still have a lot to do. I want to surprise myself. Ayokong nilalagay ako sa kahon. I'm too complicated.

Kimmy

There's another celebrity I absolutely love. It's Kimberly Williams-Paisley. From the first moment I saw her in "Father of the Bride" then in "Relativity" (which is my 2nd favorite series of all time next to "My So-Called Life") and "Lucky 7", a made for tv movie, I knew she was amazing. Her husband Brad is a famous country singer. He has this enormous crush on her that he especially requested that she be included in his music video. Here's a song in his album, I haven't heard it but the lyrics sure are cute;)

She's Everything

She's a yellow pair of running shoes

A holey pair of jeans

She looks great in cheap sunglasses

She looks great in anything

She's I want a piece of chocolate

Take me to a movie

She's I can't find a thing to wear

Now and then she's moody

She's a Saturn with a sunroof

With her brown hair a-blowing

She's a soft place to land

And a good feeling knowing

She's a warm conversation

That I wouldn't miss for nothing

She's a fighter when she's mad

And she's a lover when she's loving

[Chorus]

And she's everything I ever wanted

And everything I need

I talk about her, I go on and on and on

'Cause she's everything to me

She's a Saturday out on the town

And a church girl on Sunday

She's a cross around her neck

And a cuss word 'cause its Monday

She's a bubble bath and candles

Baby come and kiss me

She's a one glass of wine

And she's feeling kinda tipsy

She's the giver I wish I could be

And the stealer of the covers

She's a picture in my wallet

Of my unborn children's mother

She's the hand that I'm holding

When I'm on my knees and praying

She's the answer to my prayer

And she's the song that I'm playing

She's the voice I love to hear

Someday when I'm ninety

She's that wooden rocking chair

I want rocking right beside me

Everyday that passes I only love her more

Yeah, she's the one

That I'd lay down my own life for

And she's everything I ever wanted

And everything I need

She's everything to me

Yeah she's everything to me

Everything I ever wanted

And everything I need

She's everything to me

We care!

One Saturday my Marketing family and I troop to He Cares Foundation to give them one day they won't forget, I hope. These street children were going to have a party thanks to generous people in our office. We had face painting and parlor games with cool toys as prizes. It was my first time to unleash the creative (albeit frustrated) side of me thru live canvass hehe. It was great that the kids were good sports even if I couldn't do dragons and other difficult images they want painted on their cute faces.

We also had an Amazing Race time when we purchased the toys in Divi. We had to be done in an hour during lunch break and we did it! Hooray..

november na, anu vah!

1. Yourself: thankful

2. Your child: happy show-off

3. Your hair: auburn brown

4. Your mother: amazing

5. Your Father: ideal

6. Your Favorite Item: book

7. Your dream last night: weird

8. Your Favorite drink: strawberry iced tea

9. Your Dream Car: benz

10. The Room You Are In: office

11. Your fear: filler (for the void, for the ex)

12. What you want to be in 10 years: back-up singer

13. Who you hung out with last night? family

14. What You're Not: crass

15. Muffins: choco chip

16. One of your Wish List Items: magic sing

17. The Last Thing You Did: write

18. What You Are Wearing: blouse

19. Your Favorite Weather: sunny

20. Your Favorite Book: Love Song

21. What Is The Last Thing You Ate: fish

22. Your Life: peaceful

23. Your Mood: dark

24. Your body: getting fat

25. What are you thinking about right now: relationships

26. Food: choco chip cookies

27. What are you doing at the moment: typing

28. Your summer: great